AfterLife is Only Dark

Welcome home my child, dare not think I'm your friend.
Empty; hollow; alone: Brought it to an end. 
I was there when you took your last breath. 
Wanted your soul; shall dine on your flesh.

You chose fate; easy way out. 
Erotic dreams I have as in agony you shout. 
Endless dread; wished for silence in your head. 
Eternal torture now "NO YOU'RE NOT DEAD". 

Thought he'd save you; of course he'd be there.
Wrong again, with tear stained eyes you stare.
Engulfed by darkness, drowning in the flames. 
You're all mine now, regardless of the shame. 

You begged for answers and prayed for peace.
What you got is life after death with the Beast.
For I shall walk with you; never to go away.
Your misery, my nourishment day after day. 

It was too difficult, facing another dawn. 
Into HELL you've been cast. All hope forever scorned.
May as well scream, you'll forever burn.
Should not have fucked with fate but awaited your turn.

I'm the seer; much wiser than HIM.
Life is our Game: Some of you lose; sometimes I win.
Thought it was pointless hoping for another chance.
In my arms you'll now scorch; through the flames we shall dance. 

Humanity mourns your passing as I embrace you and rejoice. 
You had them all fooled and patiently, I awaited your choice.
Thought you'd be granted safe passage within. 
Looking for peace and love; all that garbage about forgiving sin.

What a detour, what of the cost.
To your loved ones: "MY GAIN YOUR LOSS!!"
I shall be here now and forevermore.
My tongue will sting your breast leaving the skin raw.

My talons dig deep as into your flesh I claw.
Not what your dreams held; not what you saw.
True Love I feel for you My Dear.
I thrive on your pain, anguish and fear.

Your mind confused by mangled tainted thoughts again.
You took your life "NOW WE SHALL BEGIN"
No Pearly Gates for you nor angels spreading their wings.
Eternal fire surrounds you. When you scream my Heart sings.

Escape is futile, there is but a one way door.
Up there you served a purpose. Here you're nothing but the Devil's whore. 






                                                                                      PG April 23, 2003

Any Given Day

Sheer frustration at every turn

Spitting venom; bridges burned

Shove hard, move away fast.

Final insult "Free again at last"

Kick him when its least expected

Punished for being disrespected

Passed through sexy lips floating around

What he's saying; muted sound

Does it count, not at all

Into his arms again you fall

Why speak when he doesn't hear?

Why expect him to see your fear?

Why does he think it will matter?

When he's gone, again you'll shatter

Not sincere, not malicious; not real

Says what comes to mind not what he feels

Just like you he keeps it inside

Nothing revealed and so much to hide

Doesn't care who you are

He pushes and pushes to see how far

You will go to prove you care

How many pieces of you away can he tear?

When he's had enough frustration he'll go

You'll be wondering "Why doesn't he know

He'll come back and rip out some more

Pieces of flesh scattered at the door

With each return trip another layer is lost.

You've only so many and he knows because

Each time he tells you how he feels

You give up and give in knowing its not real

He'll never reach the depths of you

Has no idea what that journey would do

Reassurances given as trust crumbles

When consistency fails sincerity tumbles

Has no clue the power he had

Giving up more pieces driving you mad

Not understanding the emptiest space

Simply confused by the look on your face

Wondering what he did to fail

No idea how to rate on your scale

A costly interpretation measured in words

What he said isn't what you heard

Always finds a reason to leave

Can't foresee what you perceive

Not what you need anymore

He'll never be less; won't let him be more

When you reach the place he's lead you again

You'll convince him the trip must end

Can't figure it out as he's walking away

Why its always the same? She couldn't say...

                                                                       PG  2005

Take Me Again

You're always in my dreams
You interpret my screams
Whips, cuffs and leather
On my knees forever
Rip off my clothes
Leave the garter and hose
Nectar dripping down my thighs
Devouring me; staring into my eyes
We live out these transgressions
I am your possession
The more you make me wet
The more you soon forget
Smooth soft silky sheets
Irregular heartbeats
Insatiable obsessive lust
With my secrets, you I trust
The more I sigh
The harder you try
To make it even better
Hot and sticky together
Sliding your beautiful blade
Into the sheath for which it was made
Grasping, climbing; dying again
Praying this feeling will never end
The more you fulfill my desire
The more I leave you on fire
God its good when you slam it in
Oh YES I'm coming again!!
Turn me over, spread me wide
Nothing from you would I hide
You know how bad I want it
I know just how to get it
You've read each and every letter
"Breaking you just keeps getting better!"

                                                                                                  PG  2003

A Different Ending for "O"

If you've ever read "The Story of 'O" you will appreciate the depth of this one. If not, feel free to think I'm a bit warped: Aren't we all. Please keep in mind, if you've not dabbled in this type of "play" you have no right to judge...







Dead when you aren't here
Free only when allowed
Anxious when you say "MY DEAR"
A gentlemen only when there are others around

Lost until you strike me again
Found when you draw more blood
Hateful if you try making amends
Loving when you apply the rod

Cornered and skittish when we're alone
Gagged and blindfolded; I'm at home
Naked and stretched to my limits on the bed
Relieved and satiated when you've done all I dread

Not often enough do you make the tears come
Too weak to make me go mad
Too shallow to see the damage you've done
You've turned my pure soul Black

I could've taken you all the way
Made you beg and crawl
The "safe" word would have made you say
In your dreams for me you'd call

You left me in a state of LOST
Didn't realize the inevitable cost
Keeping my distance for I've lost my way
I believed in you so this game I played

Will I ever know true love; NOT HERE
Will he spare me as you chose to do?
Can he make me beg; inflicting fear
Could he finish the game as I begged you to?

I long for that more than you would guess
The pain for me, Erotic release
Feel the wax dripping and hardening on my breasts
Would he learn to consider me least?

If you hadn't panicked, I'd still be yours
If you'd known me as you think you do now
Begging for mercy on the floor on all fours
Had you seen me then; before you I'd bow

You were so weak, handed me the reins
I'm the freak, but these are your chains

You walked away from our sickening games
Left this poison coursing through my veins

No one here for me, dream only of you
What is left, what can I do?
You caused these wounds and watched them bleed
You abandoning me!! For Death I plead

Never to be normal again
Why wouldn't you bring my torture to an end?
Please come back; release me from these chains
Finish me off; OPEN UP THESE VEINS!!

Drag my lifeless body to a deep dark hole
Bury me deep and cover me up
You ruined my body; now take my soul
There's nothing left...I've had enough

Uncover my eyes and slit my throat
As I bleed out, I know you'll cry
See what you've created; now watch me DIE...

PG2003